Aug 26, 20132 min read

Being impulsive: A story of life and hope.

Well I cheated.

I guess it depends on what your definition of cheating is. And if It really is cheating since it is my project in the first place. Isn’t there a quote that says something like “I am an artist, so I don’t have to follow the rules?” I am pretty sure there is.

Well, I had to break the rules. If there were even rules.

I had this urge, this impulse, this nagging need to go ahead and delete, a week early, the entire 15000 prims that I had rezzed 2 weeks ago. I really needed to rez the next 15000 prims. I couldn’t wait a week. I couldn’t wait for Fuschia to film it, or for an audience to be there. I just had to do it. And I had to do it quietly. I logged into Second Life and within a few minutes deleted everything. The items that were rezzed on the LEA16 sim went into my trash can in my inventory. Then, yep I emptied the trash. All gone. I have to tell you, I did it rather fast. I selected as many prims as I could and with a couple clicks, hit delete on my keyboard. I didn’t take it slow and go over each item, reminiscing, etc. Just like ripping off a band-aid really fast so the pain doesn’t linger, I got rid of everything that was rezzed. And yes, if there was pain, it didn’t linger.

All I do know is that I have to do it. I have to delete my whole inventory because I know it is important. Whether it is just important to me, or to virtual worlds, or to the art community I can’t say.

It took me about 6ish hours to delete 15000 prims and rez another 15000. My back was hurting, my wrists were sore and my legs were cramping. I took one break in between but had to go on. I get like this. I get an idea in my head. I get motivated to do something profound and I just do it. I deal with the consequences of my actions later. Or maybe I don’t.

So, this is what I created, while rezzing those 15000 prims…